Wednesday, December 28, 2011

My Quilternal Spark!

I have found that I get my best ideas in the mornings. For some reason that state that you are in right before you are fully awake and still in sleep mode is when I get my greatest ideas.  I have taken to keeping a zipper pouch of colored pencils, a tablet of graph paper and a note/sketchpad on my nightstand so that I can jot these early morning ideas down right when I have them.  If I don't do this, I tend to lose them somewhere never to be recovered because I move on to something else in my day and get distracted.

I imagine, or wonder should I say that other creative people have these same types of mental moments of creativity when that one thought gets into your mind and you just know that you are going somewhere with it. I think its interesting to know how other creative minds work. People with creative brains seem to me to be a whole breed unto themselves. I believe that they have many similar characteristics that set them apart and make them recognizable if you are paying attention.  Being creative is not just making something by following a pattern that someone has given you, oh no...that is just a hobby my friend. Being creative is creating something, making something your own, it has come to you out of your heart and soul and speak to you that it needs to be done. You have a need to release these ideas or energy and this is what makes you tick. It is your fuel, its own energy and gives you a "spark", it makes you passionate and you want to share that passion with others.  When you talk about your creativity you light up and people can see your passion and many wish that they could find this "spark" in themselves but its not something you can teach them.

I am happy that I have this "spark".  It drives me, it makes me happy, it allows me to be happy in other areas of my life because it fulfills me.  The one downside that I think I have from this is that I am an overthinker...I think all the time and sometimes you can overwhelm yourself with that. This is why I enjoy blogging and creating and lets be honest, talking! :)   I hope that my talking or blogging is enjoyable to others, but in the long run it matters not because for me it is a release of some of my creative energy, just another chance for me to vocalize myself about something that inspires me or motivates me. So in the end...all is good.  I am happy that I have my Quilternal Spark!

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Deep Thoughts by Linda Dalton

Do you ever just get in the car to drive, because you need to get out of the house and you find driving is relaxing and gives you time to think? Yesterday I did this and while I was driving I was thinking about how I am now 52 years old and I have lived most of my life trying to make other people happy or relying on other people for my happiness.

This past year I have started to work on this, but I really need to take this to another level. I need to accept myself for who I am and love me for me and all that I am. I need to stop comparing myself to that skinny girl that sits around the corner from me at work and looks great in those really short skirts that I can't wear anymore because I have cellulite in my legs that I don't want to show. (did I really just get that whole sentence out in one breath?)  Its funny how you forget that when you were in your 20's and 30's you looked great in those too.

Aging is a complicated process and I think more difficult for women than for men...or so it seems to me. You cover up your gray hair, you fret over every pound you pack on that you have to work four times as hard to try and work off as you did 10 years ago.

And then there is the man thing - the complicated and simply frustrating situation that only another single woman can understand. You fret over if you are still attractive to men, are you cute, pretty, not too fluffy, fun, smart, and the list goes on and on... This is INSANITY and for me it is stopping now!

This year I have gained some of the best friends that I have ever had in my life and they have given me the courage and the strength to realize that I am just wonderful the way I am and that I don't need to justify myself to anyone or have a man to affirm that I am attractive or acceptable. It is time to start living life for ME!  This does not mean that I will be selfish, not at all...that is not in my character and could never happen.  What this means is that I am going to embrace who I am and embrace life and start doing things that "I" have always wanted to do and living this next half of my life to the fullest and not worrying about what other people think. I am going to sing and bop in my jeep to Adele at the top of my lungs and I don't care if that guy/gal in the car next to me thinks I am a nut job!  I am going to strike up a conversation with the person in line at the grocery store because I am interested in what they put up on the belt to purchase and we are going to swap recipes after having this discussion.  I am going to sing as I walk around the block while getting my exercise and listening to tunes and I don't really care who is listening! I am going to make art that others will say is weird and I am going to love it and hang it on my wall and be proud of my artistic abilities!  Oh this list goes on and on...

That said...I have already booked my trip to Ireland, a HUGE step for me but one I know is going to be a life changing event and one that will allow me to spend time with some of the most awesome people that I have met in my lifetime, and I cannot wait! I will be going and doing things that I haven't done in my life before because for some reason I was scared or someone else told me I couldn't....hope that you will follow me on these new life journey's as I will be blogging away about them!